Teenage Socialite: 1st blog post

hi this is my first blog post XXXXOOOOO

I usually just journal but i feel like this would be so much more fun- a lot more accessible + i can also share w my friends.

Idk who’s gonna see this but i should probably introduce myself, just in case.

I’m 18, im 5’8.5 tall, brown hair, im just about 2 graduate highschool, i have a couple friends, i have a best friend. My best friend is my biggest inspiration in life. They’re 20, but mentally were the same age. We have a lot of fun; we don’t really go out too much, but when we do, we stay up so late i can barely keep my eyes open. The end of our nights were usually at LES convenience, but the guy who works there moved 2 Virginia without telling us when he was moving… so mean…

Pics Frum LES Convenience:

Helping some danish guy get an Uber from downtown 2 New Jersey where his Airbnb was LOL

Me dancin with MO’s cousin who’s also named MO <3 Mo^2 hehehehehehehe xxxx

I feel like that perfectly incapsulates how i move in the city; i dont have 2 be at a party or a club, i make fun where i can. And if i dont then byeeeebyyeeeeeee !!!!!! xoxoxoxoxoxo!!!!!!!

I decided 2 start this blog because i was thinking about how i was hooking up w this guy, who was an absolute cunt, but he told me he wanted me to write a book in the future. He thought it was ohhhh so interesting how i only move w older kidz. Like my bff 2 years older than me, all my friends in college, etc. i think its stupid cause i dont really think about how my friends r older than me a lot, but i have truly always wanted to start a blog. I just dont want people 2 see it.

Right now all my friends r in college or the college age. I’m still in my senior year of highschool, but im going 2 a college, unfortunately not in NYC, next year. Honestly im really scared because im afraid of change. I like moving w the same people, i like my friends, i love my city, i like kissing the same boys, i hate making new friends unless they’re friends w my friends. I feel like im such an idealist cause of this attachment 2 the point in my life that am at. Like i dont wanna leave because im so content w the stuff i do, the people i see, the things i have going 4 me in NYC. But what I’ve realized is that im so impulsive w this feeling of content, if that makes any sense. Like, i dont like change because i want what i want and i feel like i need 2 materialize it to know its mine. For example, i was in this silly relationship for about 2 months. We started dating only 2 weeks after we first kissed. I remember the night he kissed me, we literally were talking for 2 hours at this party just laughing & I’ve never laughed harder before. I honestly barely knew him, but had gone 2 school w him for like 3/4 years already idk. The point is, i appreciated this guy, but because of my impulse to make him “mine”, i thought i had 2 date him. Biggest regret ever in terms of our relationship because then i was so focused on the relationship aspect of our relationship and not really him. It honestly ruined our connection because im no longer able to appreciate him as the guy he was, and now only think about him as the guy he is… but i dont even wanna get into that… THE POINT ISSSSSSSSSSSSS: i dont need to have a materialized connection to something to know its mine, i can appreciate it from afar. Same thing goes for my friends, my city, my crush…trying to make something mine by being in it will only make it worse 4 the future.

I also struggle a looooottt with prioritizing myself. I have like 100000000 hobbies, passions but whenever i get so enthralled in making a boy mine or having a set friend group, i never pay attention to them. I just sit around & wait 4 a text all day which is S T U P I D .

I feel like ive been doing a lot better w that & it helps me keep myself in the moment rather than focus so hard on the future.

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I should honestly call this blog ex-teenage socialite cause i feel like im winding down + becoming mature…

I dont even really like going out anymore or feel the necessity to show my face everywhere. I’ve completely (mostly) lost any feelings of FOMO. Thank gawd. I still have a lot of fun tho. Honestly thanks to my BFF. Wherever we go, its so fun. Whether its hanging w another pair of besties we’re both seeing, sitting and talking w the owner of the convenience store for 4 hours, going 2 the club, watching movies, road trips, literally sitting and crying, we have the most fun. This summer we went to so many like frat-type parties and we still had the most fun. Idk what id do without my BFF.

I’m so scared 2 leave them next year… but worse comes to worse, i dont make any friends and i can just study a lot at college and come back and visit my BFF in NYC. If u luv someone enough, long distance works hehehehe.

Anyways. Dats me. Here’s some good music + more pics w friends <333La la love

Little Red Corvette - Prince

Fuck and Run - Liz Phair

Blame It on the Boogie - The Jacksons

N.Y. State of Mind - Nas

Spooky (Single Version) - Dusty Springfield

Mor pixxxxxx:::

It’s giving black swan @ the NYU stern party wooooooo #whore?